Many of my posts, since we took him off his "medicine" and started using alternative healing (the Adventures in Homeopathy series), have revolved around Ethan. It's amazing to see how two boys so close in age can have such different personalities. John is inquisitive about everything. It's gotten to where even in church, Pastor will say something in his message and John will ask what it means. "How is Jesus like a rock?" "What does propitiation mean?" And so many more. Salvation is a whole different conversation with him. He is still dealing with it. He knows the Scriptures, but he doesn't really see himself as a sinner yet.
Ethan is the opposite, it seems. It has been very infrequently that Ethan has asked a spiritual question. It's been a burden to my heart. When I pray for him, I ask the Lord that He would "turn his spiritual light on," if you get my meaning. But you really never know what's going on in the heart of someone else, whether good or bad.
Yesterday we had a ... "situation" that needing taking care of. The boys decided it would be great fun to poke a hole in the trampoline they got for Christmas with a broken garden tool. They punctured it. They know not to have toys, other than a bouncy ball or something, on the trampoline. They know to take care of their toys. They knew the minute I caught them that they had done wrong. Out came the tears and the apologies. I took them in for discussion and discipline and training.
Just a few hours later they were at it again, except with the back of a claw hammer! Same story again: in the house for more rigorous training, if you take my meaning. This time, as the three of us prayed together, Ethan became completely hysterical as I was praying. The kind of cry that either tells you something is terribly wrong or that it's way past bedtime. As I was consoling him, I asked what was wrong. After he finally caught his breath he said, "Momma, when you were praying I asked Jesus to get me saved."
I am so excited, but sort of apprehensive too. When I pray for my kids' salvation, I always, always, always add that the Lord give them confidence in their salvation, not doubting or question, but knowing. At least outwardly, Ethan has shown nothing outwardly that he's even thought about salvation. But he certainly knows how to be saved; we've tried to raise all of them by 2 Timothy 3:15. I hope that I'm being clear on how I feel. I mean, if he really did get saved that's wonderful. But just being sorry for sin isn't being saved. I'll keep praying that the Lord speak to him and make everything clear...saved or lost.
Anyone have a similar situation with their kids?